My name is Mia McVey, i’m 25 and i’m a student @ IADT in Dublin. I’ve had to defer two years in the middle of my course due to chronic lower back pain – after multiple surgeries its slowly starting to get a little better – I’ve had (hopefully) my final operation – Spinal Fusion in Dec 2015, which took forever to recover from.. Being in and out of hospital for 2/3 years gave me a lot of time on my hands, an i eventually realized that create this blog was something that could fill my days and something that i could pour passion into. I’ll be talking about different 420 movies and TV shows & a bit of my experience with Chronic pain, aerial hoop + other interests that do include some incredibly nerdy tee’s. With an addition of some new travel pages too as I’ve spent a lot of this year travelling, with Bali and Vietnam being the main destinations I’ve been lucky enough to explore. Several parts or pages i put up will literally just be personal indulgences, things i adore that i love to look back on or just look at period & i eventually hope to put up pages of thoughts on dealing with chronic pain at a young age and the reality shift / perspective you can gain from trauma. That said, there will be a lot of nerdy pages on film and TV series that have blown my mind, along with some of the aforementioned nerdy tees.
I started this because i adore TV and Movies and i love finding gems of shows that no ones heard of. I enjoy smoking a little herb too (nowhere near as regularly now that I’m back in college. But that was the main premise for this blog initially, what to watch when your high – mainly as well, the different categories that you can browse through. I also plan on having a few pages on music i love, my cirque + aerial hoop / silks and of course some funky stuff to watch on all sorts of occasions – while your smoking away n chatting – or music when your reading / when your in a pensive mood. there’ll be something for everyone. In the last year I’ve done alot of travelling and have started creating posts and pages for other interests i have. Also, as time has gone on, it’s become less of a “stoner blog” and more of a critical review place. The course that I’m currently in at college is “English, Media and Cultural Studies which is an incredibly interesting and varied one. We do modules of literature, (from all time periods and of different genres) television and film studies (Which i’ll admit was what drew me to the course initially) and then the “Cultural Studies” parts is basically an umbrella term that encapsulates multiple theoretical frameworks (Capitalism, Structuralism, Marxism, Feminism to name a few..) along with delving into several modules on philosophy and psychology. So the further into the four year course I’ve gotten, the more critical and analytic i can be about the reviews i do on this blog. Studying film you realize there are a multitude of layers in the content you watch that had previously been invisible to you, it’s like lifting a veil and suddenly a lot more makes sense and makes you viewing even more enjoyable. So thats something i want to bring in as a reviewer.
One little silver lining of the pretty crappy few years I’ve had is that I’ve got to explore so many new things – types of shows i’d have never heard of or looked into if i had – found some genuinely incredible things – and also kind of found myself throughout these few years. I thought i had a bit more nailed down personality wise when i was younger but i was really just a collection of questions, uncertain about everything. I think as a teenager your constantly adapting to so much change that you don’t really have the time to settle in yourself. I enjoy that as i age, i get more and more solidified in myself. There’s an amazing amount of clarity that comes with your twenties, and now at 25 i can look back at my teenager self and realize that when i thought i knew so much, that “so much” was pretty non-existent. That said, I am well aware that i could (and possibly will) have very similar thoughts about present me in ten years time. When you spend a few years in and out of hospital and half live in a ward, your basically on pause. The only thing i can compare the weird passing of time is to imagine your behind a pane of glass, and everyone else your age is growing up, going to college, graduating, doing a masters, getting a job, moving out, moving away, going travelling, living. while your just sitting on pause waiting and hoping to rejoin society. My perspective shifted irrevocably which is something that gives you a very good reality check whenever something minor happens, there’s no sense in letting it affect you when your aware of what the heavy things can do.
I wanted to document my experience around my final surgery (Spinal Fusion) aswell because its a pretty big part of my life (well the last three years anyway) So if you click on this – page about my chronic pain and little helpers i found – it will bring you to the page / pages about first hand – my experience the last three years – and also – what little comforts i could find, there’s not a lot of literature out there on people my age dealing with chronic pain so i wanted to put up a few suggestions i wish someone could have told me a few years ago . Also, i’m aware that there’s not many people in their twenties who’ve had a dozen different surgeries on their spine, so i thought if my view point can give someone else a helping hand mentally or emotionally then why not. So yeah i just wanted to make a site where i could unload different thoughts & ideas – write about shows and things that are thought-provoking and entertaining. This is also a bit of a time capsule i suppose, even if its just me uploading things, it’ll eventually be something i can look back on, thankfully I’ve had my furry friends to keep me company. I am a gigantic animal person and have a slight obsession with my own.
I think because my life was limited for so long, like a solid 2 years i wasn’t able to go to town on nights out – no clubs – no pubs – no bars, restaurants, coffee shops; my life changed very drastically and very quickly. Trying to go anywhere other than my couch with my hot water bottles and lumbar support cushions was out of the question. Not only that but i was always very aware that going anywhere new or unknown would be adding extra pain (and fear of increased pain when your already in agony 24/7 is an incredibly powerful deterrent) As I’m already in so much pain and going certain places – doing certain things only aggravates it. Initially i kept trying to do things like go to lunches w the girls or meet the lads for a few pints in my local but every time i deviated from what i knew helped and eased the pain – it bit back. So eventually Mia learned it was best to just suck it up and have people over to mine where i could be somewhat comfy & we could sometimes indulge in a little herbal help. Since a nightlife was out of the question i ended up spending a fair bit of the money on clothes. Predominantly the comfy ones, but as I’ve grown and the pain has been a bit more manageable, I’ve figured out a way to live within my limitations. I’ll admit a lot of time is still spent like this :
Same with music – if my back is killing me & i could either sit there and “breathe” or lie on my bed put on my big headphones and blare some James Vincent McMorrow, breathe and have the volume up really loud. That’s my version of a ‘meditative state’ and it really does take your mind off things, for anyone with chronic pain, distraction is your very best friend.
I quite like adult colouring books also, they may sound strange or childish but they’re brilliant. Granted there are some poor quality ones out there but there’s also a lot of gems too. They’re enjoyable to do when your watching something that doesn’t require your full attention (ie. easy watching shows that you can doodle throughout, sitting on a bus or train, park bench or the grass in the sun). It’s a surprisingly therapeutic hobby to take up. Several of the books are quite thoughtfully made, prompting you to meditate on your artwork as you mindfully fill the pages with colour. I’ll point out that when i was 20 and all this began i’d never given much thought to them, but i had done art in school and do still sketch occasionally so it was a natural progression, given that your habits will change when your not able to have a social life outside of your couch. You adapt new interests that fit within the confines of your limits. Nowadays there are several specific ‘Mindfulness’ colouring books that have intriguing quotes and highly regarded artists doing the illustrations – these are some of my favourites.
I’m intrigued by fashion + have a slightly quirky style, but I’m very very far from a girly girl – i don’t own many dresses and i never ever wear makeup but i do find certain pieces i fall i love with and have to purchase – my mother has quite a normal sense of dress & me rocking up home in my alladin pants when she has her girls over for afternoon tea doesn’t always go down too well. On the note of things i found and adored i recently bought this high neck Bikini top with a tweetybird print that is just perfection. Along with a jumper i adore from a Belgian shop “Ferm”.
So yeah I’ve had a lot of free the last few years as when the pain simply worsened continually, this meant that my limitations got more and more restricted. This essentially gave me time to scour the internet and come across films, tv series, podcasts that i would never have found previously. I adore everything David Attenborough has created, his mini series the last decade have been incredible. Two in particular i would recommend checking out (And i will get posts done for them soon) are : Madagascar, 2011 and a six episode mini-series which is fascinating as 70% of the animals in Madagascar exist nowhere else on earth. Secondly, The Great Barrier Reef, 2015 and a three episode mini series that explores the reed itself, It’s visitors and an in-depth exploration of how It’s structure and health has been affected by global climate change and pollution (basically every abhorrent things homo-sapiens have done to this planet.) and how we can attempt to save it. A lot of the future posts will be review of different nature documentaries as they are something that I’m quite passionate about.
Also, another thing i want to eventually get around to putting up is a few pages on the travelling I’ve done (and add the future trips too) like the month i spent travelling Japan which was beyond incredible – got to dress up as Geisha’s for a day. (Posts on Bali and Vietnam will be up shortly)
Also loving mini buns – they’e a tad uneven but i quite like them, also think they’re not something that will go out of style, my prerogative is if you enjoy it, go for it, plus there a little princess Leia-ee which is always good!
A little snapshot of my Aerial Hoop Class : post on which you can find here : My Aerial Hoop – this is something that makes me very happy my spine is in a better position (metaphorically) doing Aerial Hoop and Silks is something i’d always wanted to try but couldn’t for years. Ridiculously challenging but an insane amount of fun. Started Silks as well which is significantly more physically challenging.
Got a massive soft spot for Fennec Foxes and Savannah Cats / Servals – there will eventually be a fair few posts on each!
& lastly, I’m still pretty new to the blogging world so this wont be a speedy speedy operation + also I’ve just started back at college (final year, thesis year) so my free time has become infuriatingly limited. Also – quite dyslexic so there will more than likely be spelling mistakes dotted around.